User Profile

i like most things pop culture, though they don't rule my life. i collect blue bottles, though i haven't gotten a new one in years. i read books many times. i never throw out a pair of shoes. i masturbate on cold mornings when being lonely gets to me a little more than usual.

i don't sing in the shower. i do lie on occasion. if you're my friend i would do almost anything in this world for you.

i am eternally optimistic, always give people the benefit of the doubt, and i get walked all over for it. it drives me crazy when someone whines about their life, but does nothing to change it. i don't think depressive disorders (anxiety, depression) are completely chemically altered... you have to change things about yourself, the way you think, in order to be free of it. i was diagnosed as depressed with manic tendencies at the age of 19.

i have a little boy who is my world.

i rarely drive more than three miles over the speed limit, i only drink socially as it tends to put me to sleep and i enjoy staying up late, i spend too much time on the internet and not enough time in bed. i love my job but hate my boss and my hours.

i miss some of my old friends that disappeared around the time i got pregnant. i miss some of my friends who i see every day but for one reason or another things aren't the same.

i have never tried to kill myself.

i wear the same jeans more than one day in a row. i sleep with two body pillows one on either side of me.

i am messy.

the most expensive thing i own is my computer. second to that is my washer and drier, and a distant third is my ipod.

i wish i could fit into my old clothes from high school, not that i would ever wear them outside the house.

i'm more comfortable with myself at a larger size now, than i ever was at a smaller size in high school. i have never "liked" my body.

i like pineapple on my pizza.

I am not a writer, an artist, or anything other than what I am. I am not what you want me to be, or perceive me as. I am fact and fiction and power and compassion. And I am magnificent.

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